Walking down the sidewalk in Baltimore. Looking for a place to eat after the company that was supposed to load me ran out of corn. It was too late to find anything else, so I’m stranded for the night without a shower since yesterday afternoon. I’m not sure how I feel about it. On one hand I could be annoyed that someone else cared that little about my inconvenience, loss of time and income, that they didn’t make the effort to know there was enough corn. I mean, it isn’t that difficult to know, the pile is there in the open and all they needed to do is look then make a call. But, on the other hand, although sticky and sweaty from two days of July weather, I’m still alive and well. I’m free to walk to a restaurant in what appears to be a nice part of the city. I’m the scruffy guy amongst the people out on their jogs. I probably don’t look to much worse than I typically do. So why not enjoy the moment? Still, I might rather be home doing nothing. However, I’m one of those Americans who does what they are told, it is what keeps the economy going and yet is it good? Should a guy my age be walking anonymously down the streets of a city where nobody knows him and nobody seems to care to know him? I don’t think I want to think about it. I will eat, maybe for a moment forget that I do not belong here and be quietly happy as the world passes by…
thoughts
Elusive Inconclusive Thoughts
I’m full of thoughts today.
I begin to write them, but I only get so far trying to tether them to word before they float away and then I’m on to trying to nail the next one down.
Up above my head is a canopy of these balloons of topics. The first of the day fading from sight, some with strings just escaped my fingers tips moments ago, and many in between as clumped together dots of varied color.
I started on theoretical physics. With that was a thought about coincidence, a thought about fortune and the quote “there but by the grace of God go I.” I found parallels to theology and scientific theory. I considered the evidence of extra-dimensionality of the universe and the multi-verse theories as similar to concepts of spiritual reality. I wanted to explain that science explains how and philosophy answers why. I got started.
My mind drifted…
My thoughts later turned to cycles and equilibrium. The need for both. I listed examples from nature. I wrote about the rise and fall of civilizations. I had an idea about the interplay of people and history. About the way living radical faith is eventually crowded out by dead religious tradition. I pondered three different responses of reaction, reformation or reflection and denial.
This too escaped…
Perhaps these balloons will come floating back down to where I can grab them and anchor them to explanation. But for now they remain abstractions not ready for words. Themselves the topic for their stubborn inaccessible.
I will let them play among the clouds for today, but eventually they must come down and earn their keep!
Irregular Ideation 